In a few weeks, it will be five years since I sat down with a laptop on my thighs and started writing my first blog post. What a lifetime ago that was. It’s unbelievable to me, the things that have changed, the ways I’ve changed, my marriage, my career. All because of a little decision to start blogging.
I mention this today, because it’s been seven months. That’s how long since I’ve sat here with my fingers on the keyboard, writing words for LSAM. Seven months. And, sadly, I think that means it’s time to say goodbye. Even though typing those words makes my heart hurt, I think that’s where I’m at.
This is no longer my space. It’s grown. Morphed. Changed. It belongs to others now. A few people I know. Many I don’t. That’s the world of blogging. People come and go so quickly. They burn out. They change. They run out of things to say. Out of ways to say them.
Me… I’m still here. Still living a happy, small town life with M. Still fucking the shit out of each other every chance we get. But I no longer feel connected to the blog. And I just don’t know if I have it in me to start over, at least not here, in this space, in the way I used to.
My domain expires on January 18th. Unless something drastic happens, that will be the end of Love, Sex, and Marriage blog. I’m not sure yet what I’m going to do with the content. Or where I’ll go when I need to rant about something stupid. Or who I’ll tell about the hot new girl I’ve been flirting with. But right now, I’m not doing any of that anyway.
Only time will tell.
To my blogging friends out there, I’ll still be lurking, reading your words. Always.
To you, my dear reader, I owe so much. More than you’ll ever know. For giving me a voice. For letting me find validation in my thoughts, my feelings, beliefs, and desires. Thank you for being a judgement-free zone. And thank you for pushing me beyond my limits and beliefs. And more than anything, thank you for reading. It’s a truly miraculous feeling to have your words read and enjoyed.
I always have and always will love you.
*hugs and kisses*
If you care to keep in touch, you can always email me at firstname.lastname@example.org or find me on Instagram at caitlyn.lovesexandmarriageblog.