I’m a big fan of masturbation. Truly I am. But I go through these phases where I quit, with no explanation. I don’t know if it’s when I’m having a ton of sex and my libido is matched by what I’m getting. Maybe it’s when I get busy, and there’s not enough time in the day to stop and think, let alone rub one down. But whatever the reason, eventually I’ll realize I haven’t had my hand down my pants in months.
I’m kind of in that spot right now and have been slightly overwhelmed by life. I’ve also gone off my Wellbutrin, which tended to make me a bit hyper-sexual. These things, along with the normal craziness of life, have all contributed to a lower libido, tiredness, and all around blah. Which in turn has lead to no masturbation in quite awhile.
Well, I’ve decided tonight that has to change. I don’t care if I don’t want to get off. I don’t care if M and I just fucked like bunnies. I don’t care if I’m going to be late to work or the kids are fighting in the living room. I am going to masturbate. Every day. At least once.
You may wonder why. Or you may not, but I’m going to tell you anyway, so play along.
I want my sex drive back. I want to want to fuck. Don’t get me wrong, I still do, just not with the vigor I’ve previously had. I want to think about M and his cock and his cock buried inside of me. I want to come home wet and ready. I want to cum hard and I want to cum a lot.
And I know how it works. I know the more I get off, the more I want to get off. The more I cum, the easier it is for me to cum. If I make myself cum daily, I’ll want to fuck daily. It really is a simple equation: how do you want more sex… by having more sex.
And honestly, an increase in masturbation can only help ease my stress. I’ve written about masturbation as stress relief before, and who doesn’t need a little natural stress relief?
So wish me luck on my masturbation venture. My goal is everyday for a month, but I’m going to start with just a week. Everyday, between now and next Friday, my right hand and I have a date. It may only be a 5 minute date, but a date nonetheless.
*hugs and kisses*